What These Cowards Do

These are the things that cowards do.
Cowards which have been killing me and my kind
And the cowards who do and are the same for you.

First of all..
They continually and repeatedly tell lies.
Such as saying that they love you in public, while secretly mocking the returns of your affection and speaking of you like dogs behind your back.

They hide behind (if still alive) or hide within (if long gone stiff) the bodies of those who need the most help and suffer the most pain.
So that they may immunize themselves within the cocoons
of pity and gracious assistance
that we often provide for the displaced, the poor and the maimed.
Although they announce what selfish and evil pigs we are by supposed nature.
Even as they go beyond Hell’s highest hills to ensure our children eventually accept even that lie as a reality to wear as lifelong and shameful brand. Thus, making the once cruel lie of our “callous and crude behaviors” a horrifyingly truer “reality” in less generations than one would have thought ten thousand years capable of allowing.

There are many other things that cowards do.
Too many things to write down at this moment.
It’s enough knowing that barely any of us can travel through a day without sidestepping or stepping into the stinking piles of examples, left grunted and excreted out by them, all over the place.. each and every day.

I’ll finish by casting just one more example. It’s an example which one can easily find..
That is, if one decides that his life, her loves and liberties are worth more than the foolish pride of the broken heart one will surely be unable to avoid.

Because the very fibers of our existence are intertwined within the advertisements, music and movies, schools, colleges and hospitals that they now have complete and tight control over; for the entirety of our lives, from the womb to the tomb.

It’s a telltale habit born from the slow and deeply absorbed poisons of their arrogance. Built up over as long of a time as it took for us to be enchanted by them, misled and then led to slaughter by them on relentless campaigns of human exterminations.
A habit which can only be spawned from a father who was spawned from ten generations of fathers who in turn were spawned from the hundreds of generations who were closer to the planting of the acorns of the many and mighty trees from where the shadows of our beloved bodies now hang limp.

It’s their practice of creating one vow for two different and unaware wives; or the telling of two different tales for the understanding of one story.

No one rarely ever the wiser, if at all; like a sad and abused woman who’s so desperately in love that she refuses to see the truth of what is actually a cheating husband and the eventual beater of her children.

I present this simple example; it’s the story of one hand weaving unsightly knots while the other is painting conflicting colors into a ruined embroidery project. Yet the bearer of those hands ending up as hypnotizing the masses on what a “fine tapestry” it is..when he knows it’s the ugliest rag ever spread out under the light of day.

In the topmost excerpt, you can plainly see the encouragement, the hope and happiness which they suggest that our growing numbers mean to them. From a World Health Organization’s conference from 1998

Yet clearly, (from the following 1995 United Nation’s conference and representative guidebook to population reduction book “Population Bomb”) one can confirm that our growing numbers were nothing and are nothing but a “scourge”…a “plague”…and a dire problem which needs “fixing” by all and every means necessary.





By the same authors.
By the same institutions.
Within the same years-save the 1968 book.

While simmering underneath it all is the exact same vitriolic hate that they spend incredible amounts of money pretending to “eradicate” and “address”.

Spoken to both sides of the fence- those who were encouraged to trust the promises of their “positive helpfulness” and those those determined on eradicating the very subjects who exist under the exaggerated umbrella of this “positive helpfulness”.

A double dealing that’s so bizarre (for its “not THAT hidden” nature) that it’s no wonder the belief of us having been chemically “dumbed down” is so prevalent.
Because only the most critically intellectually retarded statesman, politicians and professionals could possibly have been expected to not see these contradictions in attitude, from ONE source, while believing they were truly doing their jobs at protecting us from our enemies; those who know “what’s really going on”..obviously not considered.

And so it came to be that one single course of programs and “laws” of astounding influence and megalithic proportions…resulting in an ocean of deaths and disfigurements that continue to this day…..came to be set loose upon an entire world.

By the type of cowards whose dirty little footprints and blatant contradictions exist on many more modern documents than their dirty little fingers can hide or destroy.
And whose actions, habits and crimes have been documented and predicted throughout the centuries-in material that over half of their own minions and “hi profile” pawns are barely able to understand. ..because they too exist as victims. Although their vanity and pride won’t allow such notions, I’m certain.
Such is the arrogance of them because this is what they do.
Cowards which have been killing me and my kind.
And the cowards who do and are the same to you.

Beating a Big Oaf with an Owl, Book and a Rat

I decided to do a little video project about the three most important things when forced to “dance” in battle.

They’re represented by the three pets that I chose to fight  big oaf “Captain Klutz” in a Deadmines pet battle run from World of Warcraft.
An owl, a flying book and a blind rat.





Wisdom (the owl)-is the good sense to learn when to speak or stay quiet. It’s learning how to keep your cool , even as people and systems try to work your very last nerve into one enormous knot. Being wise and cool headed- a necessity in all matters, not just battle.

Knowledge-represented by the flying book, of course. From studying offline publications, reading historic literature to seriously listening to (and often taking) advice from older people. The point is to store as much data as possible and from as many different sources as possible, so you can access unknown and necessary truths for survival and comfort.

Finally, the one I consider quite important; it never hurting to either have a rat on your team or you, yourself,

embracing the inner rat you know is twitching whiskers somewhere deep within you.

The planning of and ushering in of the sorts of ugliness at work these days wasn’t accomplished by “good, polite and nice” folk.

I dare say we’ve seen the damages that the mass of “do-gooding” folk have caused recently; with “well intentioned” efforts resulting in extensive abuses towards one another, instead of towards the ones they are conned into believing are “proper” and “righteous”. Sometimes, only a good and healthy rat can know other rats well enough to offer best insight and protection.

It takes a lot to defeat or survive the “Big Oafs” of this world..on and off screen.
It makes me very proud to know that our young gamers will have what it takes to do that very thing.

(And I’m also proud to admit that I still enjoy this song-
since I was a thirteen year old Ramsy..who had pretty much the same mediocre video gaming skills as the old one does now.

But she’s still having fun, that is for sure.)

Step Away From My “Millennial”

Silhouettes of people in a long dark corridor. The ghosts of a woman and child. Dark creepy hallway with ghosts.

Although your children may have been turned against you and/or your traditions.
With each precious memory twisted into a humiliation of misquoted sentiment..

if not simply forgotten amongst your personal failings which they have been
trained to shout from the highest rooftops..

And even if you’ve endured the immense pain of watching that flicker of recognition, the one that once brightened your mornings and reminded you that “Hey!” you had a reason to stay after all.. vanish into a dark and brooding scrutiny..

Please, as far as we may ask you with a gentle and steady permission,

Don’t forget the animals who shame them with these brazen
announcements of “inadequacies” and grossly exaggerated generalities.
Which are not at all what a loving and kind protector would allow ANYONE to EVER say about their beloved children.


Remember they are NOTHING but insults from a withered and poisonous horde who would, themselves fall apart and inside out altogether if we were rude enough to turn these abuses back upon them..

If more of us were to trumpet their gross lack of civility and the average amount of times they wake up in their own piss drenched sheets.

Because, let’s face it, a massive amount of them are quite notorious for being the same sort of drop down drunks that they have whined about and accused their own parents of being. If not animals of a pathetically worse sort.

Their parents actually had a reason for numbing their pains- from surviving widespread poverty
(which these animals’ masters brought about), watching their friends get blown to bits in wars
(that these animals’ masters continue to wage) and holding the fragile structure of this country together by all the strength they possessed and with their heads held high, with dignity intact.
Just so they could fluff the pillows and hold down the forte for what has turned out to be the most undeserving and ugly spirited generation of “tyrants” modern society has had to endure.

What have these poisonous shrews and toads (the ones who own these publications and turn the screws each day) do to earn their alcoholism and addictions?

Unless one wishes to count their ridiculous protests from the chaotic days of their own greasy haired and manipulated youth.
When they railed against a system that they now own and represent in the worst and most low-class ways possible, gritting their teeth and gripping the wheels with the white knuckled tell-tale sign of absolute and jealous lunacy.

Or when they seethed and schemed to snatch treasures that they were too lazy and too wicked to manufacture on their own without bullying entire generations and ruining countless nations.
Treasures which they have been, and are presently in the process of , proving that they never deserved in the first place.

So, until these animals shut those poisonous, horrifically abusive and muck filled holes of theirs to cease insulting our children…especially when they wag that dried up ten pound finger at us to lecture us on “civility” of speaking to our own brothers and neighbors..
Remember, no matter what, that it’s your job to stand up for your child and her/his generation.
Not to cower and nod the limp necked “okey doke” to the ones who have gone above and beyond all reason and decency to knock our children down and keep them down.

For it seems they’ve gotten it into their heads that our children are destined to wipe their bespeckled and aging humps in their old age. As slaves. Cheery, medicated and easily puppeteered servants; who are being groomed to have EVERYTHING done for them from enjoying books, driving cars to making their own shopping lists to (for chrissakes) leaving it up to bots to calculate their “best chances for love”.

And they’ve gotten hold of a broken and vile belief that our children should be happy to serve them as slaves for the remainder of their delusional and disgusting days as if they were gods and divine beings…instead of the goats and derelicts they’re proving themselves to be.

It is nothing but your job, as a parent, to stand up and  shatter that delusion.

If you love your children..no matter where or how they are.

As for the young warriors who have been trained to keep the darkness flowing while holding the baton they’ve been passed..(the very baton that many are not aware will be used to beat them into non existence once they’ve spent the entirety of a precious youth defending those who secretly hate them)..all I have is one word to spare on that subject.


If you can’t forgive today, then try again tomorrow. The next day, next month or next year..whatever it takes.

Forgive them so that the door remains open for their safe return, when these filthy and destructive animals are finally cleared from the woods.

photo By Victoria

An Extreme and Wicked Lack of Concern

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Truth be told, the existence and frequency of crimes being committed aren’t as mind boggling as I tend to express.
The true riddle lies in what type of reward executors of the worst infractions could possibly be dedicating their lives, our lives, towards getting.
With obvious and typical financial benefits aside (and threats of murder for noncompliance) there isn’t much room left to imagine other motivations.

What surprises me, I suppose, is that hundreds in power appear to not care what consequences will befall their own families, as a result of being connected to those who participated directly in the destruction and deceptions.

Especially when the hooves of their high and mighty stallions of “justice” are heard thundering across the broad quilt of our faces, each and every day.

In a world chock full of indignant “do-gooders” and exploited child spokespeople who are trained and rewarded to parrot those who hate us with every fiber of their being.

In the future (if there’s one left to be reached) the progeny of today’s criminals will more than likely suffer much of the same humiliations that current descendants of infamous figures have to endure.

I don’t see this habit changing much in the next few generations.
As a matter of fact, with average IQs dropping as they are, we’re on a return trip towards average mindsets ruled by dark aged suspicions and fears; still throwing salt over our shoulders and ogling others for traces of  “bad joo joo” from the carriers of such deep-rooted corruption.
What an unfair and heavy burden for any human being to carry. When they’ve struggled to build reputations amongst their clans and colleagues..only to be dashed on the grounds of historical evidence and assumptions of genetic tyrannical “cooties”.

Revenge. Disgust. Repulsion. Avoidance.
These are the “gifts” those who knowingly destroy vital evidences leave their children. Lifetimes of opportunities dashed for the sake of single lifetime of kicks and privilege great grandpas Bush or Obama couldn’t shake and jollies which great-grand hyenas Clinton and Pelosi refused to drop from their sharp and dentured jaws.

From mortified sons and daughters, related to formerly esteemed editors of magazine dynasties to the innocent grandchild of a doctor forced to answer for tens of thousands of mothers bullied into the forced sterility and insanity. Be it by trial or the final and depressed contemplation of suicide.
They will all suffer from this lack of foresight that all, who could have helped us, seem to be struck with.

The following is what I have determined are truths which will eventually drop into the light-with the aid of collectively restored mental functioning.
I mention restoration because the ability to “think right” must be restored; or else we’ll never understand nor see the obvious things which we sadly struggle to see now. The things which are killing and sickening  us.

And will continue to kill and sicken us.

The following is a sampling of damages and the “odd and unexplained events” sure to be studied -along with other ongoing “trivial “ and serious offenses that I neither have the time nor the heart to address.

Lack of assistance re critical news for deaf citizens

Deaf News: New ‘fake interpreter’ storm over Hurricane Irma emergency newsflash

An international corporation being forced to offer decent and necessary assisted services for the deaf. Although it’s an older article, there are still ongoing issues.

Mercury, admitted by even the World Heath Organization
as being extremely dangerous, being injected into millions of human beings and infants.

Their echoed assurance of Ethyl mercury being “quite different” from mercury; exposed as a lie thanks to scientific testimonials, including a 2017 report which specifically confirmed the two act in identical ways as far as damages are concerned, with differences being in the time of shelf life and residual tracing.

(Needless to say, this has been the worst and most publicized abuse)

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The increased crippling and damage caused to newborn babies by induced labor

Cerebral Palsy from Pitocin and Cytotec (Labor-Inducing Drugs)

under the World Health Organization internationally pushed policies

The refusal of assistance for the stopping of genital mutilation


although we are obligated to numerous “women’s rights” laws , with the United Nations making worn out decades of promises to end such violence…which even their own soldiers are immune from being prosecuted under.

FRONTLINE Uncovers New Cases of Sex Abuse by United Nations Peacekeepers

View at Medium.com

(just in case you have to input the following article’s link-from top of the search bar area- manually)

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The following are a few laws and instructions that can, at wretched least, be easily tied to the aforementioned insults and abuses.
(Something that may have been worth investigating if we would have had enough human beings in positions of influence, strong enough and fearless enough to have put millions of children’s lives in front of their own narrow interests.)

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Which leads us to one parallel factor that is commonly shared by the majority of this worlds’ leaders.
And which should evaporate any arguments which begin with idiotic “Bi-partisan” huffing and puffing.
..Ronald Reagan, as both governor and president, frequently referred to the tradition, whether as a moral principle or a reason for specific policies on issues such as abortion. John Kasich, then the governor of Ohio, wanted to set up a new agency to promote Judeo-Christian values. Mitt Romney saw it as “central to America’s rise in global leadership.” President Barack Obama invoked it to eulogize Shimon Peres. Then-candidate Donald Trump vowed he would be “stopping cold the attacks on Judeo-Christian values.” And Stephen K. Bannon repeatedly invokes it in his plans to promote European and American nationalism….

(taken from complete Washington Post article which can be read here https://www.washingtonpost.com/politics/2019/04/17/once-judeo-christian-tradition-united-americans-now-it-divides-them/)
One can plainly see the spirit of agreement and cooperation includes all parties and differing POVs.

Agreements which include actual legislation that our politicians have been free to make decisions upon , in blatant and unchecked monarchial fashion, for many years. The most shameless molestation of our Constitution-marrying religious matters into the very heart of state affairs.


Finally, we have a last, but not least , “hint” of things not being as we’ve been forced to believe.
A “clue” as to things not being as we depended on them being in order to operate within this “loving and respecting one another” snow globe.
Choosing to look on the brighter side of matters, it’s a “hint” which can help us better maneuver what precious little is left of our lives, in order to avoid future and oncoming assaults.

Holy Spit: Why Do Ultra-Orthodox Jews Spit at Christians?

Never mind this bug eyed and open mouthed  “spit” into our face, regarding the witholding of “assistance” from “unworthy” human beings. 

When an entire fabricated piece of fiction of zombies in the land was vomited out from the guts of CDC instead of real and useful information (that used to be displayed so we could better save our lives) in the event of a true emergency.


It is these obvious damages and evils resulting from these types of connections which will plague the reputations and pain the consciences of the descendants- of the hundreds of leaders, academics, media monopolists, celebrities, clergy and all others…who have decided “to hell” with even the very children they promised to “love and provide” for.

Never mind us -the “dirty and revolting human beings that infect the earth” they rule over and claim embarrassing “superiority” over.

It’s simply a shame to see how many human beings, of supposed impeccable status and reputations, have ended up safeguarding the condition of their legacy with no better regard than pet waste scraped from the bottom of their well-heeled and “Louboutin”ed feet.

The “celebrated” multitude who bare their ugly teeth and have the naked nerve to dare accuse scores of us of “anti-Semitism” ; when in our own families we carry the DNA of mothers who had to watch their babies skulls get crushed in land stealing massacres, fathers who had limbs chopped off in attempts for freedom and those millions of families who carry the wounds of countless extermination programs…where their “betters” used them like any coward who has the audacity to use human shields.

If we were to be a bit more honest and a LOT less vain, we would see that the spiritual obligation to deceive us means we’ve NEVER been protected nor “loved” in the first place..by these all too mortal “men”.

Note;(As he predicted and as tyrants insist we remain terrorized by, as if we’re forever doomed to stay in the 200 B.C.s instead of 2020 A.D., he was murdered in the period before the Bolshevik uprising)
The author is slandered (in a Wikipedia article) as being so ignorant as to have compiled a controversial translation of the Judaic documents, risking his very life, with the poorest understanding of the ancient language.
As one can see, on occasion, he did include original text-meaning the door is closed on any such careless “fact”
It is important work which resulted in one of the bravest moves a human citizen could have even imagined risking in the 15th century..especially while working under the severe eyes of the most dangerous merger of institutions that this world has ever been forced to suffer and exist under.)

photo By Sergey Nivens


This Continued Blind Trust in Liars

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Sometimes, I don’t know which is more unbelievable, the number of lies anyone can stumble across from the United Nations..
Or the blatancy of the lying that we accept from United Nations spokespeople and representative intellectuals.

We have become damaged and manipulated by the World Health Organization over the past seventy years.
Now we fight with and shout at one another over vaccination issues and other health issues based purely on this hostile “because I said so” academic snobbery.
And we do this, while whining and tutting in this weird sort of self-righteous confidence about how “the experts cannot be wrong and wouldn’t do this to us” .

Even though nothing has improved, everything has worsened; even while collecting ‘new’ dire troubles during their reign.

These so-called experts are not only wrong…they are lying while not giving a single thought as to whether one pair of eyes out of millions may even actually READ the lies.
In other words, they don’t care.

Isn’t it about time we finally give one another a break and cease standing up for those who couldn’t care less whom and how many they deceive off of the sides of a cliff?
Wouldn’t that ease up just a good enough percentage of anxiety and confusion to make it worth paying attention to?
If we grew up, settled down and …I don’t know…opened our eyes or something silly like that?

This is just ONE lie-where Ehrlich insists on coercion definitely not being his “thing”.
It was from a radio interview at his academic nesting grounds at Stanford
re his 1969 book
“The Population Bomb”.

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These clippings prove that if not for coercion, there would have been no book and there (possibly) wouldn’t have been a United Nations population program set up so quickly and easily.

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If they are bold enough to tell lies when the truth is so easily discovered, then common sense should tell us that many more lies, in that condition, exist.
My point?
That we need to get up off of our knees worshipping the “credibility” of their words…before they take that kneecap of theirs and slam it into the bridges of our noses . ..harder than they already have been allowed to do.

photo By deagreez

Yet Another Two Faced and Tiresome U.N. Sponsor

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The following video is especially meant for the young and meek who have been taken for suckers by an amalgamation of corporate entities who play footsies with the dry and cracked feet of the United Nations; long dirty nails and all.

We’re talking about corporations and the ridiculous amount of perverted bully patrols who demand and force EVERY HUMAN BEING ON EARTH to listen to them for instructions on how to run our lives.

Just like the dark ages( in one of their earlier incarnations of popery; ripping human beings to pieces and setting them on fire for not voluntarily surrendering to the rape of their spiritual private spaces)..they now insult and destroy the lives of those who challenge them on their dirty tricks and games re “female empowerment” and “racial sensitivities”

It is a small part of the stuff related to chessboards that we have all been forced to occupy as pawns; forever being moved where other hands want and forever being wiped out.

It’s a “good news, bad news” deal.
The bad news first. As I touched on, the United Nations has a mind staggering amount of backing and sponsored affiliations with companies, like Unilever, that have been deep rooted fixtures in millions of lives.

The following video is a big part of the chessboard environment as well.

It’s called a check.

Depending on the more standing up and barking back that our societies practice, it has beautiful checkmate potential.

That is the good news.

What bumps it up to fantastic news is that there are hundreds of these examples of hypocrisy that they have long neglected to “disguise”.
Because they have been arrogant enough to believe we are all actually that blind and stupid as to not note the obvious, and that they are that “slick” to not have to bother.

It’s one of hundreds of inspiring ‘clues’ that can help the young and meek hold their heads a little higher and keep the spines a bit straighter
when it’s time to remind these “high browed” hypocrites to keep the open holes in their faces shut, opinions to themselves and greasy fingers out of our lives.
And when it’s time to look them square in the eyes to demand that they stop pouring the insult of treating us like brainless children on top of the damages done by their high financed assaults and juvenile mockery.

Remember, even if all ads were pulled, with tired and traditional apologies offered..the evidence of their true colors is a matter of record that can’t be denied when it exists at the same time of their “holier than thee” U.N. inspired proclamations of patting themselves on the back for being “sustainable and socially responsible” as they always and wearily do.

photo By Анастасия Семашко

Wrong, But Never Sorry

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I will start this entry by admitting that
I am wrong.
I am wrong for the occasional cheap shots that I write and I am wrong for the flotsam of relatable insults committed within the framework of this journal.

It doesn’t mean I’m going to stop. Though I might. We’ll see.

It also doesn’t mean that I have been lying or misrepresenting what I truly feel inside. Having admitted this wrong, I’d also like a chance to explain why I’m not sorry.
Not a week can go by, if not single days, where I don’t end up with tears in my eyes.
In short, a sampling of thoughts which stir them the most..

..the time my mother reduced my long hair into a two inch cap of curls- sneering something along the line of

“You want to act like a boy, then you can be dressed like one.”
I remember the blue jeans, ugly boots (hiking and “moon”) and five days of plaid shirts that replaced the lace, ribbons and shiny patent leather I had been dressed in and which I had loved a LOT.

She took them all away. In one fell and drunken swoop of anger and confusion (amongst countless other times) over how I “couldn’t act right”.

Gone as well, my remaining and fragile hopes of the already cruel bullying and whispered giggles at school not getting any worse than they had already been.

It’s the memory of how that humiliation set the stage of an entire lifetime of having to “justify” my “right to be” the female I was born as.

No matter how many babies I’ve carried or assaults I’ve suffered at the hands of a rare number of men, this overall confrontation over how I was ever “supposed” to “act”….was an immense burden to carry.

Especially when it was strapped to the back of another burden. The one which many old time “mixed breed” children know all too well-that infernal “what are you?” choose-a-side confrontation..when neither side ended up being impressive enough for one to continue losing sleep over anyway.

Both issues which are now shamelessly exploited, without input nor permission, from the members who have much more to say on who we are and what we need. Unless we echo what “massa” has to say on the matters, of course.

I remember smacking or sneak attacking innocent children (the same age as me at the time, mind you) on the playground. For no earthly reasons what-so-ever. Not all of the time, but enough to greatly supplement the “creepiness” in me that many avoided and which I couldn’t help, at the time, for the life of me.

The most vivid recollection comes from when I was four to five years old. I used to have a young friend come over and play badminton with me and my mother, in our backyard.
The memory in question is when I brought my racket down on the top of her very small and very platinum head..and raised my own small arm to do it again. And again.

I used to steal other children’s completed homework to erase their names and put my own. Ridiculous stuff.

Even though I was made fun of (songs being sung by most of the children, laughter, spitballs) at times like wetting my pants at a bus stop or such, the times of my doling out assaults had great chances of being just as unprovoked as they could have been otherwise.

As abused as I may have been, I can absolutely admit that some of the offenses I committed and strange behaviors could be so intolerable that they would have tried the souls and patience of many decent human beings.

The fact that we now have entire and full sets of similarly afflicted generations of children, more common than rare…that’s what starts the tears.
The fact of it having been purposefully and cruelly worked into this world?
That’s what keeps the tears falling.

My occasional cruelties started from the earliest years to evolve into absurd and perverse varieties, thanks to an adulthood saturated by seventeen years of binge drinking alcoholism.
When the tears start on that subject, it has to do with the tears that others have shed due to my behaviors.
The fact that I often laughed in response or simply jammed the insults deeper….most definitely, regrettably and forever so, keep them falling.

The fact that I could never earn unconditional love or peace from a majority of people remarking or silently reacting to my “weirdness”..without my knowing how to change or control it for the longest time….
The fact that I had to “justify” nearly all that I was ,against the all too occasional rude and arrogant “normal” individual, when all I wanted was to simply “be” without jumping through hoops or stressing every detail of my behaviors..to earn a little automatic respect…to no avail..
The fact that I finally worked through the toughest challenges, beat the odds of maintaining long term sobriety and achieved solid confidence to actually smile and speak to and look at people, into their forever misunderstanding eyes…only to find out that the receiving of never-ending suspicion and unspoken uneasiness still continues no matter how much I have changed or how hard I try…
The fact that I finally ended up finding the ability to love and bond with the generation of young children I birthed and/or helped raise, to secure those precious moments of joy which I and faithless others were convinced I’d never earn nor find….
..only to watch even this love be ripped away due to the animosity purposefully woven into this society..and to lose it through the twisting of sacred memories, loss of communication and a cruel retelling of my story as a person as I never was or ever could be (aside from the true moments of admitted wrongdoings) because my children have now also been infected in processes that have mangled their reasoning and states of mind… very much in the same way I and my own peers experienced…..

All of these things and many more, believe it or not, are why I have no chance to escape thinking of them at least every week. Month after month. And year after year because these discomforts and troubles are now spread world-wide, repeated within tens of thousands of homes and countless human lives.

To know there no longer exists a justice system to address or punish those who set and now carry this bio-chemical nightmare into motion…
And to suffer the cold and unempathetic abuses of a first generation of Vaxxies (a great number of them, unknowing and manipulated victims themselves) who sit in the highest seats of power; automatons programmed to carry out lunatic instructions.

They too suffer. Unable to nurture, comfort or connect within their own families, forced to be alone, dedicated to their assigned grinds and filled to the brim with vinegar and disdain for an entire society…until they too vanish, self destruct..as was intended.
All of it, how it was a known and certain result for humankind…encourages the tears.

The rage. Forced to deal with a small group of human individuals, lives rife with filth and wrongdoing, could agree to bring pain to billions…all for the sake of making things obviously much worse and not a single promise fulfilled in existence…keeps the tears falling and flavors them with an indescribable sort of hate.

The cheap shots I end up throwing because all recourse, defense, chances for redress and simple justice have been wiped clean out of our reach.
When the ones who truly deserve the fury and who truly deserve to be stripped naked and beaten to death in public for the fires they set (pre and post mortem) haven’t set their putrid feet on this earth in well over a century.

It’s being executed by those who now sit fat and smug.

Be they heirs through actual or delusional royalty; they are determined and free to earn their living solely through centuries of wars with the double purposes of extinguishing our “worthless” lives and fattening their coffers.
With the temerity to coo at, teach and lecture us ,lifelong, throwing laws on “love, hope and peace” at us and our children… they bite our backs with expressions of disgust over us being pathetic for following orders and hold the nerve to justify murdering us based ON our following orders…which, by the horrid by, they’ve never given us any chance to NOT follow.

It’s no less disgusting than the GHB date rapist who marries his victim and blackens her eyes and splits her lip constantly, while snarling about what a “slut” she is, how worthless she is and that he promises to beat her unholy carcass until the day she acts right (the day he works very hard to assure never dawns)…when he was the exact cause of her every action and every humiliating failing in the first god forsaken place.

I’m not saying it’s a right nor polite anger. But I’m not about to flash some shy grin to embrace the “holy” obligation of my supposedly having to forgive all men for their trespasses…when they continue and accelerate their abuses, know it’s a farce and a perverse rib tickler of an evil joke for them and an excuse to hide behind.
As they enjoy the innocence of our helpless children, conduct their open air witchcraft and sashay to their conferences and meetings to openly discuss how they are going to manage their human livestock’s breeding habits, manage everything we do, from eating to screwing and all else to their high and mighty satisfaction.

Serial killings, murdered children in classrooms, crack epidemics, gang warfare, AIDS epidemics, women stoned into piles of ground meat, genocides allowed to go up to and on to millions without a god damned word from a United Nations that wormed its way into our lives on the sole “promise” of stopping those very attacks against humanity.

When all they have to show are pages upon thousands of pages of idiotic and flowery speeches, patting one another on the back and bowing and snuffling these equally endless promises. Ones that three generations of teenagers have had to suffer through-which always start with “We must come to a peaceful and kind solution” and ends with some tripe about their humble acknowledgments of yet another criminal’s attentions.
An insult that staggers the mind if one were to consider that they can mock our “weakness” and mistake our politeness (to save them from the embarrassment of feeling shamed by the obvious mental illnesses they present) for a brand of natural “moron-ship” that ranks us far below even the beasts they now insist on giving “civil rights”.

With the insult of their own soldiers and priests who rape and use children, where the only results are vile and heavy handed mob hostility for those of us who utter bitter complaint and don’t bow our heads to proclaim what “heroes” they are..

Entire sects of human people turned maliciously against one another, which result in legacy hate groups like the KKK and Black Panthers…who are both brothers who have been brought to their knees watching their daughters demeaned by society, who are both brothers who have been used in battle as disposable tools, both lied to and both kicked in their faces. Neither one respected nor defended by the sole powers who have sat above them and held each as slaves in unthinkably arrogant inhumane custody.

My occasional insults may not be right in a world where Man needs to exercise more civil restraint but I most certainly believe and know my feelings are not on any level “unjustified”.

Especially when those who control or seek to control each and every aspect of a human being’s life are as blatant as they are in killing us, lying to our faces, crippling us and going about each crime as if each one of us is literally obligated to exhibit satisfaction to live as NOTHING and to do NOTHING but lie there to be raped each day or simply stand there without any hope, security or solid ground to place our feet..at all.

For the millions of us who have been literally born into this tiresome and evil institution of willful abuse and groomed, manipulated and ‘manufactured’ to be “deviant beasts”, sometimes, there just aren’t any other responses other than spiteful insult.

And for this fact, I will never say that I’m sorry..whether I’m “wrong” or not..in a world where they smirk and guffaw out their own message, very proudly, about how wrong they know they are with zero intentions of being sorry.

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It’s Gonna Be All Right, Honey. Just Don’t Forget to Remember.

Lovers hugging in the among bature fields


As we, citizens of five countries (so far), get dragged through this plague, we’ll do well to remember a few things.


Our survival depends not on whomever or whatever we’re commanded to, bullied into and conditioned to blindly trust.
It depends, mightily, on not listening to whomever and whatever we must not and cannot trust.
If we don’t know what to do in certain situations, then we buckle down and teach ourselves or improvise.

If we can’t have what we want (other than water and food), then we do without it, without expressed complaint or crying.

We have the blood of generations of ancestors who survived many disasters from famines to genocides, depending on the history- we need to remember that each and every spare moment that becomes available.

It’s a child’s duty to play and dream of his future and fully enjoy the only time of his life when a human being may truly know uninterrupted happiness in his life.
At the very least, it’s our duty to make sure he gets to make those memories, so that he may call upon them to help soothe him during the more difficult and longer span of his adult life.

Too much precious time is lost in hysterics or behaving as if the “worst” has already landed on our door.

Yes, these will be interesting times.

No, there are no guarantees either way-except for our enemies obvious and fevered enthusiasm and not to be believed insanity. By the time the “smoke” has cleared, we will want to still be making the best of each day, not wasted by upsetting our systems unnecessarily .

Within the past four months, I received two unexpected packages containing random commercial items, with no note explaining the reasons nor origins. Having found a few other bulletin posts from people who are expressing confusion over the same thing… I wish to stress the following, in light of the oncoming storm.


(mine {a pack of Halloween socks in one and a bag of turkey jerky in the other…of all things} were obviously routed through the regular post; one I remember coming from Amazon…but no return addresses at all)

These are the very least of times to trust as we’ve been. Now, our lives depend on it.


Even if you’ve never met your neighbors, you may want to drop a quick note introducing yourself and quick contact info. There’s no need to roll over a Bundt cake or bond to any intimate degrees. It’s just a more pleasant option to anticipate the help of or  offering help to familiar faces of one’s neighbors, rather than unnecessarily risking police state abuses on one side and those citizens who live for the times of crisis and potential unrest on the other.

Most importantly of all, remember the details of these years and record them.

Countless numbers of us have, but it won’t hurt for the extra journal or vanity video to make it into the future.

Handwritten, tape recorded, however and whenever one may.

To identify and chart the individuals and groups who remain convinced that the majority of us are so very neurologically  “well taken care of”; considering “generational damages” and such.

Or to simply share with your grandchildren before you kiss their foreheads good-night, in the future..with purest gratefulness and hardest learned lessons far behind you.

It’s okay. When looked at from a humane sort of melancholy, one could almost feel an odd pity for the drivers and sponsors who have marched and railed through the decades to secure their glory, you know?

SO many of them are but a couple years away from retiring into the humiliation of jumbo diapers and habitual bare gum munching.

You know, in the twilight that often comes with the elderly diseases that come naturally-unlike the cruel “unexplained phenomenon” of Parkinson’s and early dementia that these decrepit bastards allowed my middle aged brothers and fathers to be forced into.

If this was a movie or some sci-fi comic book, one could almost be tempted to feel just a smidgeon of pity.

But..one last thing to remember? They don’t deserve an ounce of it.

Click the following link, print what you read immediately, or snap a picture and stash it. If you have the time, make multiple hard copies of the main text along with as many of the relevant links that catch your interest.


It’s just a boring ole bit of high falootin science speak that I figure me and my other “insectoid” siblings can stare at for fun, whilst we wait for our drool to bungee its way to the typical destination of the top of our house slippers…and before the links vanish into the 404 nether realms.
That’s all.

photo By VioNet

“Teenage Crime” Tribute

Hands reaching out from hell.


Oh..I nearly forgot the “cherry” for the top of my little project.

It’s an 1851 cherry which is just as fresh as, yet grotesquely more bloated than, it was in the days that Rev. J.A. Wylie, LL.D. wrote it.

The following clippings (“cherry”) are from The Papacy; its History, Dogmas, Genius and Prospects”

-a first prize winning essay on popery crafted by our distinguished Rev. Wylie.

With it being one of my favored reads, I regret not being able to include more passages from the many chapters that comprise this treasure.

However, with the same ancient forces in current steel-fisted (albeit under cowardly cover) control, grooming the average human to be as dirt floor ignorant as possible, (while avoiding the risk of us fainting  from the strain of sneezing and thinking at the same time..barely) I’m more than honored to share just one.

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The link included above will allow you to read the entire work; including a rare opportunity to finally discover the reason why an entire institution can openly and repeatedly go unpunished for protecting and/or spawning thousands of child rapists.

While hiding behind multi-tentacled organizations which legislate the  disgrace, criminalization and abuse of Man for the “crime” of overpopulating “their” world and daring to try protecting himself from being raped of his very natural born essence.


After thousands of years.

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