The Lies that Blind us

Couple not talking and looking at each other after quarrel
It’s an unfortunate fall-out that I (and other women)have had to deal with for an entire lifetime. The anger of disappointments and rejections heard told by close male friends and acquaintances over the course of four decades. From men residing in different states and from multiple backgrounds.
It was something I accepted as a disturbing fact when I was a young and more attractive woman. I found it so “unjust” that I purposefully rejected certain men of certain statuses, on a few occasions, to keep myself ‘available’ for the “more normal” men that stole my heart and attentions.
It’s only when I got older (and developed into less of a sought after “prize catch“) when I started questioning it at all.

It’s not that I started believing that a massive amount of men were telling lies for attentions (goodness knows there were plenty enough of them and those type aren’t worth discussing). I’m referring to the good type of men that I , nor any woman I knew, wouldn’t have hesitated for a second if asked by them to go out on a date with.

I came to another realization because these were absolutely good men, nice looking men and although not CEOs of any particular companies, they stood on their own feet and asked no one for anything; it wasn’t making any sense that I was hearing these many stories of constant  rejections from unknown women.

Each story resembling others told, with the occasional growl or long faced bitterness when he (whomever it was at the time) would seem to be remembering the rejections.
A few of the universal complaints=
“If you don’t have a Rolls parked in the driveway or muscles bulged out past your ears, girls won’t give a guy the time of day.”

“It’s not like the majority of you women are swimwear models yourself, you know? It’s about time you ladies came back to earth and start thinking about whether you deserve to be so picky.”
To MANY women, these words will seem familiar.

To the men..I’m not angry. Not anymore.
As much as I was made to “suffer” for the “crimes” of what “women want” (much like men end up as whipping posts of suspicion in the midst of first dinner dates with embittered divorcees) it’s now clear as daylight what has been purposefully done to us.

No, there’s no more anger or frustration-only a saddened and enraged residue. Hand on my heart, any Man…not at “you”.

I believed it as a young lady because I hadn’t lived an adult life for more than a minute.
I couldn’t believe it as a grown woman because that’s not what I saw, heard nor experienced in my own life alongside dozens of friends and hundreds of casual female acquaintances.
I saw countless pairs of what this juvenile pop culture refers to as “mismatched” couples-so-called attractive females with not so attractive males.

From men with the big tummies to the skinny and slightly awkward men.

All shapes, from shy to outgoing, rich to not so much.

From construction workers to the unemployed, women (like myself) time after time would get together with a man if he was kind, smart and could make us laugh.

While in grade school girls can be haughty snickerers over someone’s discount sneakers, I was pleased to find, as grown women, that there was an agreed upon celebratory joy when one of us found one who simply “listened and loved to spend time” with us.

Now, I will admit that I rarely saw, with even the homeliest example of male, was the equivalent of a man proudly holding the hand of a big bellied, skinny and awkward or very poor female.

If I did, she was often the type with low self esteem. His disrespect of her and disappointment in her often seen by all as a major indicator of her “appeal” -an easy “fill in” for until he could find a “more suitable” mate. Once again, not the type of man we need waste time on.
In the cold language of social economics, men are most happy to trade “up” and women are known to trade “down” and still be content as long as the other factors include her being respected, protected and cherished.

Men-physical, Women-emotional; a fact that will always be nestled deep within our DNA no matter how many madmen molest our systems.

This is a well-known average fact.

Except in the movies.
Tv Shows. Videos. Songs.
Decades of media, coming to a  peak in the 70’s, churning out images of the well off, wisecracking and smooth-talking man with the perfect pecks and dimples.

NOT the average male by far. To make matters worse, the characters would often be sporting a lot of “dangerous bad boy” qualities besides. Another thing that is actually mostly seen on screen or limited to prison yards.
A certain female to male hostility “somehow” started polluting our entertainment. This spreading of the diseased “no money, no honey” kind of messaging was being worked and set into the psyches of one generation of adolescents into the next.

It has bugged me, until recently, as to how such a difference from my reality as a woman could co-exist with so many men and their stated realities of ‘rejections’.
I need you to read this section.

In case these pics “vanish” for no good reason, as they’ve been..

(a ridiculous habit {yanking pics} by simpleton establishment overseers  failing to realize that the more they erase the innocent information…the guiltier they look..never mind the unraveling of decades of work to seem “benevolent and legit”  by the unexplained erasure of unoffending material)

..I took time to write it out…because it is very important that we acknowledge the culprits of this calculated destruction and call them out; as  cowardly as they wish to be, glaring boo eyes from their dark corners.

“Factor II-Father
The man of the household must be housebroken to ensure that junior will grow up with the right social training and attitudes….
The advertising media, etc, are engaged to see to it that father-to-be.. (in the future..meaning Now)…is pussy whipped before or by the time he is married…..

(written in 1969, from document dated 1979..which anyone old enough remembers was not the case with the established male role)

He is taught that he either conforms to the social notch cut out for him or his sex life will be hobbled and his tender companionship will be zero…
He is made to see that women demand security more than logical, principled or honorable behavior…”

It is most sad deception because the AVERAGE and decent women on this earth ARE looking for nothing BUT logical, principled and honorable behavior…the way it has always and usually has been for hundreds of years. For the relatively good folk -not the ones allowing this infighting nightmare to darken our homes, workplaces and schools.

Despite the sham attempts of “studies” convincing girls that they are “boys” and men are “evil”, there are plenty of online bulletin boards from the grown up gals bemoaning the loss of what we knew as “our man”.

It’s also an ironically evil deception considering that it was primarily and mainly the devious work of tyrannically intellectual white men from the past and is now carried on by the tyrannically intellectual white male “liberal social warrior” ;professors in our universities and behind the cameras, lying through their teeth re “population control” to “save a planet”.
Save it for what?-when all are driven insane and function as laboring puppets-constantly anxious, confused and locked within prisons behind their eyes? Much like now, but worlds worse?

It’s the sickest and cruelest deception as far as warping the man’s mind and woman’s mind against each in the name of population control.

We need each other…so much. Nature didn’t pair us up merely on some cosmic whim solely for the purpose of sprouting offspring.
We each carry natural differences that complement each other. Differences which are vital to the human species.

Not being a dedicated heterosexual myself, the same respect and rules apply for same sex partners-the intimate and intricate differences of masculine/feminine traits that provide cooperative balance for one another. (Yes, the “gender/gay rights war” propaganda is also another disgusting device to keep us fighting one another).
These are differences that have helped us find comfort for thousands of years with and for one another. Default traits that have served as protection against outside forces when all we had to depend on was each other.
Precious things which are now being ripped apart as if by rabid beasts.

With us glaring at one another as the “evil-doers” when one can clearly see that these ugly things have been manufactured into us from elsewhere. With none of us questioning how in the world things got changed so completely upside down over such a short amount of time.

Irreparable damage has already taken place bio-chemically. To such an awful degree that they could remove the brainwashing aspects from media and the hatred and repulsion towards one another will continue.
One need only imagine the next ten years as our newest ASD victims grow into adult hood; it will be a nightmare of unprecedented proportions.

Our afflicted men will remain at home with the robotic synthetics and/or transgendered companions and the females will also be ‘forced’ into more homosexual relationships because the missing protection, kindness and once available desire the male held for them will leave them with a tragic emotional deficit (especially with the exploding numbers of schizophrenic diseases occurring amongst our females) without anywhere else to turn.
Both will be on State allowances, being told what to eat, when and who to have sex with, where to live and what to say and think. If you think I’m exaggerating…simply open your door. You know this is exactly where it is headed.

SIMPLY because of the repugnancy these insane drunks feel over us “infecting the earth” with our babies.
It doesn’t get anymore hateful than that.

THIS WAS A PURPOSEFUL ATTACK AMONGST MANY other ongoing attacks that our politicians refuse to do anything about- except to verbally abuse us for being “ignorant” and keep shoving, sneaking and wordlessly herding us into the U.N. slave pens.

We need each other now more than ever.

There is NO law that should demand we make each other’s lives a living hell or tolerate it. It’s as stupid as saying a victim should shut up and lay down and be happy that he or she wasn’t murdered during a violent raping…when the crime shouldn’t have happened in the first place…and life ends up not being worth living anyway.

This is why we need to start fighting the animosity we are “seeing” from one another portrayed as “reality” from a traitorous media…for they damned well know, EVERYONE in the science community knows….the visual art in media is exactly how we frame our experiences re “who we are”.

If this is a well-known thing (as it has been) then it’s damned near impossible to not see that it has been used against us.

(Per above…they SAID it would be. And not enough of us know this),%20129-133.pdf

photo By fizkes

Mother’s Land

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I was reminded of two lovely things this morning.

The first being a charming publication I was privileged enough to be accepted into for the Fall-Winter edition in 1998-1999. It was titled “The Neovictorian/Cochlea”

The second one being the inspiration behind the poem which was accepted for inclusion at that time. I had heard an old acquaintance speak so lovingly of his Irish born mother that it moved me in many ways.

Having no true and loving mother of my own, I’d always chose to covet his story as a personal comfort for myself throughout the years.

This is the poem…( circa 1998- pre “Ramsy”)

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photo illustration from the Fall-Winter 1998-99 cover of “The Neovictorian/Cochlea”


humble Spring cleaning

Close up of a box with old letters

the most humbling thing
as I clean up this Spring
is reading twenty years of letters forgotten
remembering how loved I was no matter how rotten
I recall being
through teary eyes seeing
some words which were written I never replied

the ones who gave up while a couple more died
as each gem shines brighter than each one found before
to discover such wealth
when I thought myself poor


photo by zinkevych


What Was Understood..and What Will Be.

Young Man Huddling on Floor Holding Knees to Chest
It reminds me of when a former neighbor once admitted to hearing my screams from our house across the way.

When she told me, I was an adult, her admission referring to when I was a young girl.

She had heard me, but between my father’s admired reputation and her reluctance to believe it was “that bad”..she never once called the police.

It’s okay. She was a good woman. I accepted her tear-filled apology.. although it’s hard to put into words what sadness went through me to know someone could have helped the years I spent as a child believing that no one ever could.

I’m also reminded of how my hands used to get smacked away, in my desperate efforts to cover my privates during the course of my parents’ very wrong and very humiliating night-time “inspections”.
Once again, a difficult explanation for those who will never know the humiliation of being forced to expose oneself as a young child, on a regular basis by those supposedly in charge of your best interests.
And being slapped for trying to protect yourself.

Finally, after becoming an adult, to have it hit you like a ton of bricks as to what those “inspections” were actually about….well, it’s a free fall straight out of a reality re a world that you thought you knew for yourself.

It’s a long felt betrayal. It leaves a wound one can’t quite wrap one’s mind around regarding the evil that people are capable of matter how young one may be and no matter what was promised from those whom everyone is convinced would never…ever…allow such harm.

These following articles reminded me of these very unfortunate things.
What I already understood as a child about helplessness and being punished while in danger…
and heartbreakingly enough, the understanding others will come to regarding what it was all about…

photo By Jan H. Andersen

The True Culprits are Dead and Buried

At the end of the day….
We could easily come to the simple conclusion that those responsible for certain biological misfortunes are long dead and buried.
In order to mete out the justice these high brow animals deserve, we would have to excavate their horrid little carcasses…invent a reanimation machine ..and beat them to death in a town square. A real town square, not an “online community” town square; the heft of their big heads wouldn’t fit otherwise. Obviously, not possible.

Yes, I know there are current and unaddressed inheritors of their schemes and legacies of hate.

However, I wonder how many (if any) of them realize that they also carry the marks of disability within them as much as they do, manufactured by these long gone Machiavellian pricks.
The “magic tell”? Mercurial poisoning and the symptoms.
Specifically, the following sections I highlighted a while back.


When one considers the distribution of the millions of vaccine doses injected into as many young children as “they” could get their hands on in the 50s, one can create a bridge to the present time.
Our current young are not the first disruptive , out of hand children which caused great concern for their elders.

If you place brackets around the 60s through the late 70s, there’s nowhere in written history where traditionally” insane” behaviors ran as rampant as they did in the adolescent scene.
One small example would be the  nude disrobing in public places. Not just the occasional whoo hoo streaker in town or rebellious princess being as bad , blond and naked as she wanted to be on a horse. No…I’m talking about archival material we have to this day that clearly shows hundreds of thousands of naked, drugged revelers who lost their ever loving mind at the same time. From filthy communes where human beings chose to live like pre historic man to multiple and nonsensical social- emotional expressions which raised many alarms amongst even the most tolerant of adults.

Every human being undergoes biological and psychological shifts in its young development. But the incredible shift between the Greatest and Baby Boom gens defies any notion of “gradual” or “normal”.
To eliminate dragging in tedious discussions of the civil rights, women’s lib and gay movements..
(which, according to our currently fired up youth chanting over the “injustices”, might as well have never happened at all)
..I’ll introduce a hypothetical example of a “bad” generation raising a young generation of children who inexplicably and instantly end up much more “good” than their parents.

Let’s say a group of bad parents, ill tempered, selfish and crude spit out copies of themselves. The laws of epidemiology (and our eyes) tell us that their offspring will be prone to more hateful and negative behaviors than can be excused by nature or stunted by nurture.
The buffering of assumed positive environmental influences would be there, of course, but these children would be expected to still lean towards more “boo” than “yay” when left to  biological druthers.
But when their children end up volunteering for charities, saying prayers over meals, being completely polite to all vulnerable people and with barely a harsh word spoken out loud against anyone…there would be intense studies over how this happened. It wouldn’t jive according to historical record and basic expectations.

Reverse that and we have the immense break between the Baby Boomers and who raised them. A disconnect that begs more explaining than merely political movements, drugs and the arrival and influence of the “boob tube”.

Another small example- the mass reaction to musical groups at the time. The outward hysteria of screaming masses and the near complete abandonment of long practiced self awareness. Automatic behaviors  passed on from one generation of each family to another..if only for the sake of not “looking crazy” and/or simple “self respect”.

There HAD to have been a shared residual bond of two successive generations of war serviced fathers and grandfathers in these youngsters’ families. The outspoken vitriol and disrespect that seemed to mark the general attitude of these ungrateful brats..seems to be just as cold blooded as cold blooded can be.

These weren’t strangers’ ideals that they attacked, these were the loving and hard working men of their own ‘tribes’.

It’s as if millions of youngsters disassociated the facts of their broken homes, anguished alcoholic veteran fathers and varieties of intimate hardships suffered far away from the notion that these things had been done (thought to be done) for them with love and concern for their futures as free people.
Almost as if a massive wave of apathy blanketed the children of a comparatively ‘good’ generation.

Juvenile delinquency shot up. Sex crimes and serial murders shot up. Divorces shot up and out to degrees so rapidly it affected and interrupted the environments of countless children. I dare anyone to run a study and find more folks who claim to not have been affected in bad ways by divorce than otherwise.
Young minds barely remember their best birthday parties when they’re grown, never mind altercations. Children depend on the basic routines and thrive best in environments free from worry and disruption; fallouts from fights being more temporary than divorces which end up generating lifetime changes.
Our Baby Boomers, the original “Spectrum riders”, rushed into breaking up their own families across this world as if the foundations their children stood on didn’t matter. Even though everyone now knows the ugly truth of second marriage divorce rates and the horrors of single parenthood.

That also could be considered an epidemic of apathy- sexual self satisfaction and the pathetic chase of continued adolescence trumping the health and hearts of our youngest treasures.

Our Baby Boomers are in charge.
I’ve caught the president rocking ever so slightly back and forth. That’s been my “autistic” jam since I was a baby. I’ve been listening to three decades of his  egotistical, finger super glued to the trigger comments. The stuff the kids hear now? Oh boy, you should have heard the news interviews back in the day. He had it bad and didn’t give one dry leaf who disagreed with how “perfect” he claimed to be, bad hair or not. And is his original hair.
There’s been an increase of unbelievable cut-downs, sarcasm and devil-may-care insults …from our POLITICIANS , of all people. For centuries, alongside bishops, grandmothers and virgins the dignified and wise “statesman” has maintained a steady and unspoken respect.
As immoral and two faced as most were discovered to be..there were still protocols of etiquette strictly adhered to. Up until the 80s, after Ronald, presidents, senators, etc. kept tidy and managed facades.

Now, it’s as if a self control button has been ripped out of the panel of what generations have come to rely upon as the “grown adult”.

Our youth have been taught to sneer about the “fakery” and “falseness” but it’s all part of what has made our societies bearable to live in. It doesn’t take a genius to look around and see this “keeping it real” ness has resulted in ugliness and discomfort-not beneficence and harmony.

Just because your real life involves a dirty house, papers strewn all over and dishes piled high in the sink.. it doesn’t mean that  it’s right to invite guests over so you can plop into your sofa and cross those stinking and black heeled bare feet in front of your guests’ horrified and disgusted faces.

It’s common sense. It is thinking outside of one’s selfishness and minding other human beings’ comfort.

If you cast aside the ass kissing for ass kissing’s sake (which is a weak and unfortunate thing to do), keeping up appearances is a jeweled key to impressing folks who truly matter; those who hold the serious cash and have enough pride about themselves to not be caught dead associating with the ‘ugly’ and ‘uncouth’.
You don’t have to “love” people, but you do need to love yourself enough to not become your own obstacle for self centered success, that’s for sure.

However, within our society now, there is an unraveling and bucking  affecting us, from eldest to youngest-as if even self consideration is a broken thing. Not each of us, but enough of us to make this ride unnerving enough that discussions are being held on a continual basis.

Everything that is plaguing us without answers…mentally and socially…every condition that has reared its ugly head and has massive conspiracy theory fingers clawing at it’s origin…..
I truly believe better heads than mine could cure within a couple of generations, if we simply directed our attentions to the true and original culprits.

The snide eugenicists of old and “cream of the crop” overlords who were determined to eliminate the stains from the property that their golden spawn would inherit.
The delusional “modern” men of the early 1900s who believed they secured for themselves seats amongst the gods in heaven, not caring/ believing that they ushered in a hell for all of us on earth that would progressively fester over the course of a hundred years…while they lay scott-free and unaccountable deep in the dirt.
One needs to merely look at the nations which ceased mandatory vaccinations. Where we once rode higher than them on many top levels and now hover towards shameful lowers and thirds.

One needs to merely look upon the scientists and engineers who have helped steer the herd into the hands of international authorities with fancy mile long dissertations and laboratory stats that confuse and impress most of us.

They too (by large measure) carry the very same traits of those of us who have been deemed “mentally ill”. Yet they stubbornly insist , while reminding us of their intellectual “superiority”, upon the need for “rounding up” our youngest babies to “correct wrong behaviors” .
After all have been injected, medicated and “corrected”…that same apathy, that same stubbornness and unwillingness to bend to the “will of lower peoples” will still exist within how they rule, abuse and live. ANY argument they present (falsified or genuinely held) for ANY notion of making a “better world for those who remain” will still look and be the most insane stringing together of words ever strung together.

Because it makes no sense. Especially if they are affected and ‘suffering’ the exact same deteriorations going on with the “lesser of the species”-little ole Us.

Looking at those who started all of this and working from there in a serious spirit of reversing this mess? It has to be a better bet than this vortex of hell we’re staring into open mouthed and determined to be sucked in by.

Obviously, there are purposeful social manipulations creeping through and doing their work by media, educational materials and non chemically induced methods. That’s a song that will never stop playing, but at least there exist chances to correct and/or fight against the material creations.

This is an  earliest attempt that legitimate Drs. tried to warn us of in 1910. A ‘scam of false alarms’ regarding what would be named the “polio epidemic” decades later.



(No…you won’t find this article neither. It was scrubbed within hours of my posting it)
Biological damage is permanent.

Biological damage is now known to morph into genetic inheritances.

Biological damage is the cruelest and most evil declaration of “you have no say in how ruined your life will be” that man has ever brought upon this earth…in the name of his ego and wretched lack of self esteem.

That’s what needs our immediate attention by those properly educated and brave enough to try EVERYTHING to stem the horror tide against our babies…and now the obvious deterioration of millions of middle aged men who are sharing similar symptoms and losing their minds at an unbelievable rate.

(Although, many us having been by their side life long, have noticed disturbing parallels in such numbers that the news of this “Alzheimer’s epidemic” is not shocking at all.)

This is not a life for the “good of people” is a nightmare being allowed to play itself out with nothing but a whole can of “we don’t know”s mocking our desperate pleas.

Let’s go back to the introduction of the vaccines and mercurial poisoning.

It has to be better than allowing heads to dictate morality and enforce slavery upon human beings they deeply despise on the best of days.

(Heck, it can even provide a “get out of hot water” card , clean and free….blaming it on the dead and opportunity to claim total innocence. No one would be the wiser, considering how “dull” and “dopey” we the people are regarded as a whole.)

Unless, of course, the kicks are too priceless and destruction of this entire world was the main goal after all.
In that case, it’s shrugs all around isn’t it?

The True and Ignored Constitutional Crisis

I’m glad I heard this verbalized concern over a “constitutional” crisis.
Only because it verifies, from a “horse’s” mouth, that the Constitution is something we’re expected to abide by.
The rest of what was said…can be flushed down the toilet with the rest of the juvenile rot.

I don’t know where the raw nerve came from, prompting this performance in the urgent manner with which it was announced.

I do know, however, for her or any of her narcissitic colleagues to stand by and allow private companies to boldly and blatantly rip our free speech away from Us is a foul and bitter reminder.
One of several where they have demonstrated that the Constitution does not mean a thing; except when the high lords and ladies wish for it to for their convenience, not for our lives.

From the nasty and rude way they shoved the long schemed healthcare plan (also against the Constitution) down our throats while grinning through their teeth and admitting not reading it…….
to judicially raping us from additional RIGHTS in many other orders passed in the style of Monarchy..not through the processes of legal American Law according to our Constitution;the only jobs these people had to do.

Allegedly sealed by  public oaths that were supposed to mean something.
In front of our faces.

There’s no need to engage in lengthy and childish debates over “private companies being free to do as they wish”.

The government can command any private industry to heel on account of millions of people relying upon the services or any other reasons.
When single mothers lose their livelihood because their sites were closed, men get fired (or not hired) for mere opinions on their pages and such….it would be hard to argue the relevance of a global platform serving billions. Especially with all of them acting as One with singular opinions shared and identical threats and enforcements.

For her to actually perform this insulting and dramatic “call to reaction” while using the word “Constitution” is an unforgiveable slight.
For her to do so with such confidence, as if we were so  learning disabled that we wouldn’t know better or that we would take this announcement seriously…it introduces a disturbing picture of her being as mentally unstable as her exaggerated and widened eyeballs often suggest.

Stomach turning as it is watching these politicians, while the media puckers up to fulfill its obligation to glorify and broadcast their noises..
For each representative and senator who stands by and participates in the blatant deceptions, insults and forceful behaviors….for as long as the years run ….there will remain records and evidence of them doing so willingly.

If nothing else, may we remind our children of that fact , for as long as they are still blessed with being able to understand.

Despite the enslavement and various assaults they will have to endure , the least we can leave them with is knowing that they are not insignificant animals who deserve open humiliation and insult from those who insist upon being seen as ” more important”.

Our children may be forced to obey laws, but my god, they do not need to have their noses rubbed into it, being insulted like brainless fools via announcements that serve to do nothing but bring additional aggravation, confusion and false hope.
Most certainly not by an order of humans so self aggrandizing and delusional that even the least educated amongst us regard them as buffoons.

May we make sure to teach our children the nature of these records- such as this despicable video of this woman saying what she says.
They need to understand that these “urgent messages” are an obvious mockery of our once protected Constitution, due to the fact that all of the social online corporations are being allowed to punish and deprive citizens of THE most important Constitutionally protected Bill of Right…which she and the rest of them were OBLIGATED by oath to protect and for which there existed precedent to do so, “private” or “not”.

The blood shed by our fathers and grandfathers guaranteed that our children wouldn’t have to beg or plead for that.

Not to have word games played over it by rich cowards who look away, laugh at us, treat us like dirt and pretend they don’t know what we’re talking about when we try to remind them of that fact.


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